Rebellion

My last blog was basically a pity party. I know exactly how to change my attitude. I need to surrender this issue to my Lord and Saviour. Most issues have been handed over, but for some reason I don't want to hand this over to God. My rebellious nature wants to keep this issue in my pocket to bring out from time to time. I want to keep this issue so I have something to be angry about. This is not Christ-like. However, God will not yank it from me. He will wait until I submit it to Him and willingly surrender it to Him. I've had other struggles and this is how He's worked in my life.

Many people think God is up there waiting to zap us. To lord it over us, but honestly, that's not how He works. He doesn't like the attitude, but He'll patiently wait while I struggle and remove it when and only when He knows I'm serious about handing it over. That's not to say I might not struggle again. It's like learning to ride a bicycle. Sometimes you fall down even after you've learned to balance yourself and ride pretty good. We are not perfect, we are human. God understands that, He'll be there to help us up again. He'll run alongside of us as we gain our balance and take off down the road again. The only difference with this analogy is that He runs alongside of us all the time, not like the father who stands and waves as we take to the road again, thinking he's finished his part in it.

Pride is the root of my problem. I need to have a heart to heart talk with God. That is a private talk, so I have to go for now.